I just came from a meeting where the topic was fear ... and projecting is always a bad thing to do but I hate the dentist and all things teeth and I have to have two wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow and then 3 crowns in the near future and man oh man will my mouth ever be the same again? Aaaaaa.
Okay. It's just teeth. It takes like 20 minutes. This too you will survive.
Breath in and out.
I had rowing today -- I'm learning how to row. We row with two oars and it's not so easy and you spend a lot of time hoping like hell you don't fall into the smelly water. I am not a huge fan of water, either. Water is so amazingly powerful and I have a very healthy respect for it and don't really like being in it when I can't see my feet and I know that in this river, you can never see your feet.
Today was the end of our third week of rowing and ... today I did it. I did it the way you are supposed to. I let the body hang and the feet do the work and the rowing follow and I didn't pull and I didn't fight the oars and I somehow went into that zen state and just did it and it was cool. Really cool. For a few minutes, I got it. And then I nearly fell in again and did that face where you try to control and the more you do the less it works until you let go again and then you are in the zone and rowing as you should.
Learning how to row is a great metaphor for good things go do in life. Stop the fight against things you can't control. Let go and the rest will follow. Stay in the moment. It's all there.
Tally of the day:
*One of those extreme soccer mom days. Had to get Thomas up for an appointment at 9:30 am so he spent the morning being mad that I woke him up and then took him to town and me to crew and then from crew had lunch and went to work and then went home and took Thomas for an allergy shot and gained a bunch of kids along the way and had to take them out for food because there were so many and then went to see jazz, the author and to a meeting. Yes, I had to refill the tank.
*Nick used his cell phone reliably for incoming and outgoing calls and let me know where he was and what he was doing all day long. Day two and there's always tomorrow.
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